one of those days

we have one of those days today. you were a little more unsettled than usual i don't know why. maybe it's because you reached your one month milestone today? 

you were pretty easy to look after the first two weeks sleeping most of the day (not so much at night) and you nursed well too. in the third week, your night sleeps improved (you mainly wake for your three hourly feed like clock work) but you became more awake during the day and your day naps got worse. we probably had the worst day today. well, i hope it's the worst.  it took me longer and longer to put you down for a nap even though i start the routine as soon as you've been up for an hour or an hour and a half or as soon as you start to show signs of tiredness. i tried giving you the dummy,  i tried nursing you and i also tried singing to you but nothing seems to work today.  it's days like these that make me doubt myself. it makes me (over)think and (over)analyse everything i do to find out why you are not sleeping during the day because all i want to do is to make sure you have enough sleep during the day.

when your brother was a newborn,  he was a challenge too,  especially to a new mum like me. your grandma told me this old wives' tale where most babies will settle down and become easier to look after when they are one month old so i was hopeful when he was three weeks old and hoped that he would be one of them babies. but no,  he didn't. he was the same high maintenance baby when he got to one month old. it could be that we were having some challenge with breastfeeding. so grandma said to me,  i didn't stop crying until i was three months old so maybe my own child would be the same. so i waited again and sure enough once we settle into our routine,  your brother was easier to manage. 

so you are one month old today.  it looks like you're following your brother's (and mine) footsteps. now i shall keep my fingers and toes crossed that you will settle down when you're three months old.

ps: i was planning on taking a nice photo of you to remember this day when you turn one month old but i was too busy coaxing you to sleep and nursing you. so, no photos today.