instead of writing this on Sunday when you'll be 36 weeks, i decided to write this today because in exactly one month, you will be in my arms. in exactly one month, my life would change, our family dynamic would change. of course, everything would change for the better with your arrival, sleep deprivation and all. most importantly, we will all have to learn a new routine, a new rhythm to life. i hope your brother is ready for this change too.
a lot of people tell me the second baby often come earlier than the first. your brother came just a day before his due date and i hope you'd do the same too. i know from 36 weeks onwards, you're ready to join us in the outside world but i also wanna savour these last few weeks to enjoy being pregnant with you, feeling your every movements. despite the discomfort and the regular trips to the bathroom in the middle of the night.
another reason i'm hoping you won't be coming too early (like now or in the next few days) is because i haven't finished up at work yet. i have two more weeks to go after tomorrow and i have not sorted our your newborn clothes yet. i'm planning to sort them out this weekend and get them washed next week so if you can, please hang in there for another week at least.
it makes me nervous to know from Sunday onwards, it would be anytime now. i try to imagine what it would be like if you did arrive way earlier than expected like 2 to 3 weeks. would i be ready? would that be better than waiting till the due date? that's the thing about child birth i guess, it's a waiting game and nobody, not even the expert can tell you exactly when the baby will come. they can predict when you technically might come but that's an estimate and it is not 100% guaranteed.
waiting for your arrival and finding out what kind of baby you are is very exciting. this analogy came to mind whenever i try to figure out the chances of you being a girl or a boy. i felt like i bought a lottery ticket but the difference is this ticket is definitely a winning ticket. so, if it's a winning ticket, what is so exciting about this ticket? it is exciting because the prize could be either an all expenses paid for trip to New York or a cash prize of $20,000. either prize is exciting. it's just like either you're a boy or a girl, we're just as excited. but the catch is i can't open the envelope to find out what i've won till 17 August. so until i open the envelope of this winning ticket, there are still lots of room for me to imagine walking down the streets of New York or dreaming about how to spend the $20,000 prize money.
so, baby #2, please indulge me and let me enjoy the last few weeks of being pregnant with you. let me enjoy your punches and your kicks as they become more and more prominent these days. allow me to savour the last few weeks imagining what life would be like with two boys or a boy and a girl before one of them become a reality.
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